I guess I should be grateful for the Internet. It has brought me some great friends... more than great but I dont know a word that would fit. Sadly, they live states away and some in other countries. Kind of hard to lean on a friend who so far away and most whom you've never met in person. While I treasure these people and while they have supported me through more crap than anyone else (besides my husband), I can't hug them, have a drink with them, see them blow out their birthday candle, hold their hand and have a picture together to stare at when I feel down.
I try to be a good person. I guess I have to give up on the dream of having friends like that. Closest person who lives here who is like that, isn't planning on staying here. She's here temporarily with her husband's job and she'll move soon enough. I can't let myself get attached to having that "dream" friend only to have her leave in a few months.
Pity party for me. yeah, bust out the tiny violin. I know it could be worse. I get that. Doesn't really make it hurt any less though.